Hey! Finally. Been hard lately. Getting harder and harder. Something happen. All I know is, got to be strong. For her. Can't call her 'sayang' anymore. hmmmm... Well, no matter what, I still love her.
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim!
Allah, please help me. I pray to you, that, with the distance that you gave to us, we will change for the better. With this distance, we will learn about Islam deeper. With this distance, we will love Allah more than every thing. With this distance, we will be stronger. Allah, please help me. Help me to change myself. Help me to be a better man for her and for myself. Let me be her guidance to the road of Islam. Let us be together again, happily until Jannah. May she become a solehah girl, a solehah wife. My solehah wife. Save us from the depths of hell. Forgive us.
Amiin!
Tuesday, 5 June 2012
Saturday, 31 March 2012
Your Fallen Guardian
HEYYOOO!!!! Acting all happy go lucky. Dunno what happened to me. Things suddenly become serious, complicated and deadly. One thing for sure, is that I still have my Sayang. HMPH! Life getting harder and harder. Especially when nobody trust you anymore and treat you like some paranoid kid. It hurts. Really hurts. Well, all and all, they're just bricks in the wall.
Wait, I'm not complaining. I know my Sayang been through some ups and downs in her life. She seems to be hiding her problems. I'm your Sayang, your pain is my pain too. Feel free to call me Sayang. Okay! Topic please! Hmmmm...
Sayang, I really want to take care of you, help you and make you smile a real smile instead of a fake smile. How I wish I could do all these things to you. You know one thing? I suck at smiling. For me, It's hard to smile. Even taking pictures. But, when I looked at one of God's greatest invention, which is my Sayang I can smile without even trying. Look at the picture. A smile that shows no regrets and sorrows.
Well, Sayang, lately it's been hard. I really want to hold you in my arms and protect you from all around. I will hold you closer when you cry and need a hand to hold, a hand that will never let you go again.I want to bee your Guardian! But Sayang, your guardian had just fall. sorry Sayang! No matter what happen, you're still the one that gives me reason to live.
Sayang! Getting tired already. It's 4 o'clock in the morning. hasn't sleep yet. Love you Sayang!
Wait, I'm not complaining. I know my Sayang been through some ups and downs in her life. She seems to be hiding her problems. I'm your Sayang, your pain is my pain too. Feel free to call me Sayang. Okay! Topic please! Hmmmm...
Well, Sayang, lately it's been hard. I really want to hold you in my arms and protect you from all around. I will hold you closer when you cry and need a hand to hold, a hand that will never let you go again.I want to bee your Guardian! But Sayang, your guardian had just fall. sorry Sayang! No matter what happen, you're still the one that gives me reason to live.
Sayang! Getting tired already. It's 4 o'clock in the morning. hasn't sleep yet. Love you Sayang!
Saturday, 17 March 2012
I'm Sorry That I Iied
HEY!!! Just got beaten up by some psychotic clown. Pathetic cowards! Just now, I went out, lepaking with Sayang and her family. It was fun. Sayang, kept saying that she is getting fatter. Just wanna say one thing, even if you're fat, even if you're skinny, I will still love you as my Sayang. hahaha! Today, I got bullied by Sayang. I don't mind, but, I thought I saw pain in her eyes. Pain that I can't explain. I'm not sure if she's okay. Sorry I didn't ask. Hang in there. Sayang is so good at hiding feelings. That thing bugs my mind. Sayang, are you really okay? I know I'll get the answers soon. InsyaAllah!
Sayang, I admit it. I lied. When you call me, actually, those clowns were in front of me. The truth is, I ran to the mosque, to attract the attention of those clown. I made myself a bait, so that they won't follow your mom's car. My plan worked. They followed me. I know, I'll not be okay. That's not my priority. I ran as fast as I can. Then, I realized, if I keep running, they'll keep chasing. If I stop and fight, there's a chance of winning. Pain will be there, but, only temporary. Glory last forever. hahaha! suddenly merepek. Sayang, I really got beat up. During the fight, my shoulder, hurts so bad. It isn't a fair fight. Seven against one. Huh! Cowards! Sayang, I really love you! So damn much! Now, pain is taking over me. I can't think properly. I feel so weak. It hurts. Can't stand any longer. Need sleep. hehehe! Before that, Sayang, forgive me for what I had done. Forgive me for this lie. Thank you! Thank you for everything! Please don't be mad. I love you!
Goodnight Sayang! Feel free to call. If no one answer, just put the phone down, and pray for the best. Please! Don't worry. I will never leave you. I promised. I love you! I love you more! I love you so much! I love you the most and the max! I love you more than anyone could ever imagine! I love you with all my heart!
Written with regrets,
AdamUniqueMota
MrAwesome
YourSayang
Sayang, I admit it. I lied. When you call me, actually, those clowns were in front of me. The truth is, I ran to the mosque, to attract the attention of those clown. I made myself a bait, so that they won't follow your mom's car. My plan worked. They followed me. I know, I'll not be okay. That's not my priority. I ran as fast as I can. Then, I realized, if I keep running, they'll keep chasing. If I stop and fight, there's a chance of winning. Pain will be there, but, only temporary. Glory last forever. hahaha! suddenly merepek. Sayang, I really got beat up. During the fight, my shoulder, hurts so bad. It isn't a fair fight. Seven against one. Huh! Cowards! Sayang, I really love you! So damn much! Now, pain is taking over me. I can't think properly. I feel so weak. It hurts. Can't stand any longer. Need sleep. hehehe! Before that, Sayang, forgive me for what I had done. Forgive me for this lie. Thank you! Thank you for everything! Please don't be mad. I love you!
Goodnight Sayang! Feel free to call. If no one answer, just put the phone down, and pray for the best. Please! Don't worry. I will never leave you. I promised. I love you! I love you more! I love you so much! I love you the most and the max! I love you more than anyone could ever imagine! I love you with all my heart!
Written with regrets,
AdamUniqueMota
MrAwesome
YourSayang
Sunday, 11 March 2012
Lips of an Angel
YOYOYOYOYOYOYOYOYOYOYOOOO!!! It's been a long time since my last post. Same as my last farewell to my Sayang. Damn! I miss her so much. Sayang, I hope you miss me too. hehehe! Sayang, I miss your laugh, I miss your smile, I miss your face, I miss your jokes, I miss the time we merepek with each other, I miss the moment when I stared at your face and you block my view with your hand and said "janganlah pandang camtuh. malulah,". Good times. Unforgettable memories. WOW!
hmmmm.... This morning, I called Sayang to wake her up for Subuh prayer. I'm so glad she answered. Her cute wake up voice just simply made me smile. After a few weeks, finally I get to talk to you. It's so good to hear your voice, say my name, it sound so sweet. Your voice, just leave me speechless. hahaha! That's why I ask you silly questions. I was so glad that I was talking to my Sayang after a stressful month. I noticed that her voice, sound so tired. I gotta end the conversation eventhough I don't want to. I felt so sorry for her. Sayang was so tired. When I ended the conversation, Sayang said "I love you,". Coming out from the lips of an Angel, hearing those words, it made my eyes filled with tears. hehehe! I really really miss Sayang. How I wish I could be with her right now.
Just a short post written by,
AdamUniqueMota
MrAwesome
YourSayang
hmmmm.... This morning, I called Sayang to wake her up for Subuh prayer. I'm so glad she answered. Her cute wake up voice just simply made me smile. After a few weeks, finally I get to talk to you. It's so good to hear your voice, say my name, it sound so sweet. Your voice, just leave me speechless. hahaha! That's why I ask you silly questions. I was so glad that I was talking to my Sayang after a stressful month. I noticed that her voice, sound so tired. I gotta end the conversation eventhough I don't want to. I felt so sorry for her. Sayang was so tired. When I ended the conversation, Sayang said "I love you,". Coming out from the lips of an Angel, hearing those words, it made my eyes filled with tears. hehehe! I really really miss Sayang. How I wish I could be with her right now.
Just a short post written by,
AdamUniqueMota
MrAwesome
YourSayang
Saturday, 18 February 2012
A Dream
Yoooooooooooooo!!! Hey there! It has been a long time since the last post. hehehe! So, here you go. Well, last monday, there was a 'perarakan' for the Maulidul Rasul. Everybody in school must attend it. I, as a student that obey the rules (hahaha!) attend to that event. After 'berarak' all the students and teachers were gathered for a closing ceremony. During the ceremony, I felt so weak, tired. Suddenly, I Fainted. Jeng! Jeng! Jeng! hahaha! A little bit of suspens. hehehe! I remembered that I fainted in the hall.
When I was still unawake, I had a dream. A dream, a sign or a lesson. As I remembered, the dream started when I was standing besides my own body. I stared at my own face, thinking about what is happening. Then, I realized that I was dead. I was a soul with no shell. I looked at my own face and pity myself. I pity myself because I hadn't achieve anything in life yet. Suddenly, a girl ran towards my dead body and hold it. Crying, hugging it tight. Telling my dead body to wake up. Hearing that voice filled with sorrow, I realized that the girl was Sayang. She said to my dead body "Adam, jangan lah pergi. Adam, please bangun. Please bangun Sayang. Sayang dah janji taknak tinggalkan Faten kan? Sayang tolonglah pegang janji tuh. Sayang! wake up!". She burst into tears. I really thought that I was really dead. I cried looking at sayang because I didn't manage to hold on to what I promised to her. I said to myself "Sayang, I am so sorry. Adam nak sangat pegang pada janji yg adam buat tuh sebab, adam tak pernah rasa bersyukur sangat. adam tak pernah rasa bersemangat. adam tak pernah rasa begitu penting kepada seseorang. Sayang, sorry! No matter what happened, walaupun adam dah pergi, Sayang tolong jangan lupa rasa cinta yg kita pernah ada eh? Sayang, just move on without me," I was so sad. I was on my knees. At that time, I was flashbacking all the good times we had together. All of a sudden, I felt that my body were being pulled. I turned around and suddenly I felt like I'm in a different place. It was dark. I felt like someone is holding me. I realized that I was on bed with Sayang. Sayang hugged me tight. Really tight. She was crying. And then she looked up. With eyes filled with tears, she smiled and said "I knew you would wake up. Now, you have to really wake up. Faten still tunggu adam kat dunia yg sebenar. Faten tunggu adam bangun tuh. Faten tengah risau sangat. Jangan buat faten risau eh sayang?" Just when Sayang ended her sentence, I woke up in the real life. I was in the clinic getting needles all over my hand. hahaha!
Well, that was a memorable dream. It teaches me to always fight because Sayang is there, waiting for me. Sayang, you're the first one to know about this dream. I love you!
When I was still unawake, I had a dream. A dream, a sign or a lesson. As I remembered, the dream started when I was standing besides my own body. I stared at my own face, thinking about what is happening. Then, I realized that I was dead. I was a soul with no shell. I looked at my own face and pity myself. I pity myself because I hadn't achieve anything in life yet. Suddenly, a girl ran towards my dead body and hold it. Crying, hugging it tight. Telling my dead body to wake up. Hearing that voice filled with sorrow, I realized that the girl was Sayang. She said to my dead body "Adam, jangan lah pergi. Adam, please bangun. Please bangun Sayang. Sayang dah janji taknak tinggalkan Faten kan? Sayang tolonglah pegang janji tuh. Sayang! wake up!". She burst into tears. I really thought that I was really dead. I cried looking at sayang because I didn't manage to hold on to what I promised to her. I said to myself "Sayang, I am so sorry. Adam nak sangat pegang pada janji yg adam buat tuh sebab, adam tak pernah rasa bersyukur sangat. adam tak pernah rasa bersemangat. adam tak pernah rasa begitu penting kepada seseorang. Sayang, sorry! No matter what happened, walaupun adam dah pergi, Sayang tolong jangan lupa rasa cinta yg kita pernah ada eh? Sayang, just move on without me," I was so sad. I was on my knees. At that time, I was flashbacking all the good times we had together. All of a sudden, I felt that my body were being pulled. I turned around and suddenly I felt like I'm in a different place. It was dark. I felt like someone is holding me. I realized that I was on bed with Sayang. Sayang hugged me tight. Really tight. She was crying. And then she looked up. With eyes filled with tears, she smiled and said "I knew you would wake up. Now, you have to really wake up. Faten still tunggu adam kat dunia yg sebenar. Faten tunggu adam bangun tuh. Faten tengah risau sangat. Jangan buat faten risau eh sayang?" Just when Sayang ended her sentence, I woke up in the real life. I was in the clinic getting needles all over my hand. hahaha!
Well, that was a memorable dream. It teaches me to always fight because Sayang is there, waiting for me. Sayang, you're the first one to know about this dream. I love you!
Monday, 6 February 2012
The Moon
This goes out to someone who is everything to me. I'm hoping that you'll be in my arms now. You're the one that I want. The want that I need. The one that I gotta have just to succeed. I love you from my heart, really and truly. Sayang, someone told us to look at the moon and asked us how many moon is there. Obviously there's only one. Then, she said that the moon is only one like me to Sayang and like sayang to me. What she said is true. The moon is far, but there's only one. You're so far away, but still, my love is for you. Sayang, I miss you! I am being strong. No matter how strong, I will still miss you Sayang. Sayang, one day, I'll be further away. No matter how far away, I will come back and search for you. I will chase you until you're truly mine. Sayang, in a few hours, you're going back to penang again. I know it is hard. I know that you don't want it to happen. Sayang, I know you can do it. You have to do it. For us eh Sayang. Please! One day, all this will be over, and we will live under the same roof. We will live together with wealth and happiness. Sayang, please stay strong. I am torn just to know that you're going to be far away. No matter how torn I am, I will still fight. Cuz I will not let the sacrifice go to waste. Sayang, no matter what happens, I will still love you! I promise! I love you! I love you more! I love you so much! I love you the most! I love you more than anyone could ever imagine! This is AdamUniqueMota, saying, the moon is one, no matter how far away. Signing off for a few weeks. I'll be missing you Sayang! Pray for the best for us!
Sunday, 5 February 2012
Random? Idealess
YO! Wazzuuupppp! Well, it has been a long time since I last update this blog. Here I am! Updating this blog... Dunno what to say... Running low on ideas... Hmmmmm.... I'm thinking... I'm thinking... HAH! I got it! wait... no. I don't got it. Just gonna tell about some random stuffs. Maybe that'll do.
So, random stuff. Sayang! That's what came up in my mind. Suddenly, I'm flashbacking about all the things that me and my Sayang had done together. Wow! I really miss her. Hmmm... When will I see her again? Before there were miles between us, she left something. Something that even Sayang didn't realize that she left it. Sayang left me a light. A light that only I can see. A light that came from Sayang. Sayang, if you're reading this, Thank You! Sayang, the light is you Sayang. The one that always get my spirits up whenever I'm down. The one that keeps me fighting even when I'm weak. The one that make me a better man. From that day on, I promise to myself, to always love you no matter what. I also promise to myself that I will fight for a better life and I will fight for this love. I have to change to the better. Sayang, even my friends realize that I've change a lot. Change to the better. They ask me why I change all of a sudden. My answer is only, A light came into my life and show me the path. That will leave them questioning the answer. Sayang, you light up my world. You taught me about life and future. Sayang, someday, I'll be rich! You'll completely be mine! When that happens, all the things that I dream for has finally become a reality. Sayang, I Love You A Lot! I will be chasing the moment when you will completely be mine. I will overcome any obstacle that gets in my way. My love for you is strong. It will always gets stronger. Sayang! remember that I will always love you! No matter what happen. I hope that you will do the same to me too. I hope that I can be the light for you. This is me AdamUniqueMota saying that I'll fight for you my love! Wow! A spontaneous post that turn out to be great.
So, random stuff. Sayang! That's what came up in my mind. Suddenly, I'm flashbacking about all the things that me and my Sayang had done together. Wow! I really miss her. Hmmm... When will I see her again? Before there were miles between us, she left something. Something that even Sayang didn't realize that she left it. Sayang left me a light. A light that only I can see. A light that came from Sayang. Sayang, if you're reading this, Thank You! Sayang, the light is you Sayang. The one that always get my spirits up whenever I'm down. The one that keeps me fighting even when I'm weak. The one that make me a better man. From that day on, I promise to myself, to always love you no matter what. I also promise to myself that I will fight for a better life and I will fight for this love. I have to change to the better. Sayang, even my friends realize that I've change a lot. Change to the better. They ask me why I change all of a sudden. My answer is only, A light came into my life and show me the path. That will leave them questioning the answer. Sayang, you light up my world. You taught me about life and future. Sayang, someday, I'll be rich! You'll completely be mine! When that happens, all the things that I dream for has finally become a reality. Sayang, I Love You A Lot! I will be chasing the moment when you will completely be mine. I will overcome any obstacle that gets in my way. My love for you is strong. It will always gets stronger. Sayang! remember that I will always love you! No matter what happen. I hope that you will do the same to me too. I hope that I can be the light for you. This is me AdamUniqueMota saying that I'll fight for you my love! Wow! A spontaneous post that turn out to be great.
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